Songbird: June 2009

Friday, June 26, 2009

You just never know...

Death;

Dark, scary, mysteriously gloomy, sad, depressing?

I beg to differ, its what you make out of it, 7.15 p.m. MJ was announced dead on CNN, i was a bit shocked i m not gonna lie, and i felt a bit sad. I m not the hugest fan heck i dont even have his albums till yesterday when he died, i just decided to dl it since i was in the processing of massive bootlegging to begin with for my zune. Lets remember him for the smiles he put on some of our faces as a kid...or the squiggles you used to do that somewhat resembles the moon walk.

But yeah, death makes you think doesnt it? what could have, what would be, what if...why... how...
what if was you? the list goes on...

I d like to think death is life's friend, makes life more meaningful... a contrast, as most people only really understand somethign by difference. We learn most not by similarities but by difference and you see this in the best and the worst of people. I m sure you know what i mean, silly stuff like racism or being judgemental.

Let me save y'all the pointless arguement or debate whether michael jackson was actually worth remembering or not, you all know hes a good musician and thats what he should be judged for nothing else, unless of course you shared a bed with him like the so called kids did or had tea with him every thursdays as an early reminder of whats to come-the weekend!!! like friends do...

i bet you dont... so why worry,why judge? for those who do... sometimes it doesnt make any sense why people judge all this famous ppl just by whats out on the media. Whats real is what that matters; what you experience... Lets just give em ppl a break sometimes

Be whatever you want to be, with whom ever you choose to be, be happy, feel like you are doing the something you that represents you..

Don't just sit there ... Do something you... Draw, write a song, make someone laugh, smile, anything, make cookies. Do something for yourself do something for someone else; be it someone close or a stranger... i don't know the world but i know me, and i ll remember you as someone worth remembering, a happy thought...

You can't control a lot of things;

Time waits for no one,
Death does not pity anyone,
But life is what you are born with
It's a choice ... Don't waste it
Life is what you are...

Heres a tribute to a person who did give his heart to the world with his music

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Alarm Clock

Used matlab to make an alarm clock on saturday morning, how ironic cause a guy who cant sleep properly, who s already awake on a saturday morning,early morning! makes an alarm clock; the kind that asks u math questions and if you get it wrong it plays a song for 5 mins and wont shut up... and if you hit snooze well lets just say theres no snooze button,or you d wish there was none.

:P

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Escapism

You feel the safest to share my worries with and in that i ve finding myself lost only wanting you to have and share this mess in my head, and shut myself out from my other escapes; my songwriting, pieces of paper, this blog, my environment which have somewhat helped me help myself

...which made me realize i forgot what i already knew, i cant expect you to be there all the time, even when i need you the most, cause that maybe the time you need me the most to be at my best.

Yes, i m a mess at the moment, but its nothing i can't handle...i always will be able, i do wish i had you around but for now, my heart can wait for you to help pick it up but my mind won't, i ll fix this mess... the irony is its not a matter of a fixing, its a matter of deciding. I will start with admitting this is the hardest point of my life so far, where my cross-roads don't have any street signs, and i dont have a hand to hold as i try to get to the other side and it seems like the cars are trying to run me down and i m not crossing fast enough.

And i do admit, i like seeing things through your beautiful soul when you let me, let myself in.