I have come to realization that maybe i guitar being broken, is a good thing. I tried recording just my voice alone today and yes it sounds horrible.I don't think i m being hard on myself... i m not sad or frustrated. Just a light nod inside myself and a voice in my head saying... maybe this isn't so bad after all. I feel really bad to have made so many people listen to my stuff over the years, i thought maybe they d like it, but really maybe i should have worried whether i liked my own stuff before anyone else.
It was a good run while it lasted, maybe this weekend would be an end and a beginning.
I m starting to feel maybe this is best, fellow audiences, i apologize for my delusion of me writing something that actually made a difference. Maybe music isn't my calling. At any point, i d like to thank you for your patience and your kind support. It is appreciated dearly.
All things come to an end, like this blog...and will be replaced. I ll get a new blog soon...
Thomas Edison once said "Many of life's failures are men who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up"... he did not intend for it to be heard by the delusional. Anyhow, i wish you all well. Good day.
5 comments:
You're not delusional. Not even close. I happen to like your music.
doesn't your music make you happy?
it certainly makes us happy listening to it. isn't that making a difference? regardless of how small it may seem...
maybe you don't realise it.
your voice is only one aspect of your music...there are so many other things that make it
special: you. oh and i love your voice by the way.
we(i) feel honoured that you choose to share your stuff with us, contrary to what you may think.
and if you're not satisfied with your stuff,then keep searching till you find it.
how does anyone really know for sure what their calling in life is?
if it makes you feel happy,and if it feels right,then just do it.for yourself.for the people that you love.life is short after all.
just do it.simply because.
music is one way you express yourself...why stop now?
this is coming from a person who has like 1 percent of your talent when it comes to music. i've felt this way many times before...why do i keep trying/embarrassing myself/doing something without a clear objective/what am i doing??...why do i spend time on it when i dont even know if i am going to make something out of it in the future.i don't know where this is all going.
with zero confidence, insecurities...i am crap compared to every other performer ..those who actually know what they're doing etc
it started out as a hobby..then i'd attempt to play/sing in front of people..and i often think that i was(am) crap...i am always going to be pitchy/i'll drop my pick without fail/my own stuff is nothing original/full of crap..etc etc...i may feel like i might do something out of it someday,then feel like i dont even know what i'm doing the very next day.
but you know what,i don't care anymore.i'll just keep at it because i love it.it makes me happy.and it makes people that i care happy.and of course i'd like to play/write/sing better ( i can't even tune my guitar to save my life)thinking about all this messes with my non-existent confidence even more...but for now, ill just do it because it makes me happy...because it feels right.because that's how i express myself(i can't even express myself well no thanks to my non existent knowledge of the guitar/music theory)...however insignificant/crappy it may seem to others, it is what i like doing.
at the end of the day it helps me learn more about myself.
it occurred to me that music is not about being an excellent singer/writer/performer/musician...it's about being honest..about expressing yourself...and sharing this with others...hoping that it makes a difference however small or momentary.
i don't have to prove anything to anyone.
i never told you this before, but you inspire me.
who should i look up to now?
p.s. delusion is overrated?
people thought edison was delusional when he tried to invent the light bulb (ok i just made that up)..but the question is who are you to call yourself delusional?
*hugs*
your biggest fan
aih >.<''
vik, ur music's not even close to horrible. it just lacks phrasing.
i like the lyrics, the sound and all the other stuff, even your voice. (0.0 it surprises me that i'm saying this... [so shy] =3)
I actually happen to like what u do. just as much as pa does. that is: very very much.
(and yep, if u say u're delusional, then maybe a whole lot of us are too, eh? since we like ur songs... >.<'')
u like singing so just sing lar.. i may have felt tortured when i was young, but for the past few years its been getting 'cun'... :D
i even boast about u... pig.
so just keep singing.
ps: i support what Anonymous says.
go viky~ go ky~ go viky~ go ky~
and i have been totally honest in saying all of the above. even dyi likes ur stuff. so GAMBATEYO!!!
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