Retrospect

It's been awhile since i really sat down and typed my thoughts out on a blog or anywhere really. I found excuse in work and being tired from it to not write or there's this faint voice of my super ego telling me maybe i m just afraid of the fact that i couldn't really write to begin with. It s funny how i have been doubting myself lately. I must say i ve been lost in rut i made conveniently for myself. The thing about covering yourself with work is that you dont really get time to spend time with yourself really. I find myself lost not knowing myself lately. i dont take time to talk to myself as much, but really i can't blame myself or anyone. We are all servants of our circumstances.

The most important thing i have learned out of this i d like to start with, apologizing to this beautiful girl that i m in love with, for some of the things that i could have done better. Ask me what i ll tell you hun...

Apparently it feel like 2 C outside and i m watching zorro on TV while typing this. It was Deepavali not too long ago, i didnt do much, was supposed to play music for charity. This event called Trees Atlanta, an organization that plants trees around the city but they canceled live music for today because it got too cold and it was gonna rain. So i have Steph's PA system lying around in the living area doing nothing but its okay, i was too tired to play todays anyways, i had 3 hours of sleep the night before. Oh well, i have the coffeehouse that i m organizing for end of the semester to play at and the bonfire that devika's got me thinking about.

It's my third deepavali away from my family and i m beginning to miss being home, although i do want somethings slightly differently. One of the things that i have really begin to believe, are that people are defined by what they do, which makes me sad thinking about this. I don't feel like i want to be away from who i have been, to be who i want to become but it doesn't feel like there is much of a choice.It's only human to feel attached to familiarity. I m starting to feel sleepy and whatever i m trying to type out seems like its a blob of unorganized thoughts. i do have a point that i m trying to get out here... but i dont exactly know what thats why i just decided i m gonna blog. so forgive me for the ranting lol... how has your day been btw? please do tell me, leave me a message or something. i need to do some catching up with y'all anyways. :)

Reflections, always put me in an interestingly peculiar mood. Curious but not overly zealous? i m not even sure how to describe it but yeah. Oh a random thought i just found out my sister has an very cute blog that really reminds me of the funny side of her. Just incase, i m talking about Sha Le Nee!!!... erm here it is TADA(maybe not, i forgot where to get the link from ROFL) Ow...she even made me a birthday card and posted it on her blog :P. OMG,i forgot i m 22. for some reason i wanna be honest and say it doesnt really feel like its important but i do admit i like the fact that i get to spend my day talking to people that i know when they call me up or leave me a message. A good reason to keep in touch. Someone told me someone told that someone(like the language?;]) that a birthday is a day in the year about that particular person,hmm....

i don't feel like i can stop typing at the moment... i dont even know what i feel about this cause i didnt realize that i had so much in my mind to talk about. hmm... maybe i should have sat down and thought of nothing instead lol... now i wont be able to sleep...haha...hmm, i like writing stuff out. i should do this more often. haha... okay i guess thats enough sharing for today. Wonder what tomorrow will be like? I know BEAUTIFUL!!! I should go to bed now, i have to study for an exam on monday tomorrow. Oh well another busy week, but i will find time for myself. :P Don't wanna keep making the same mistakes now do we?

:) when you think life's hard ask yourselves, "Compared to what?"

Take care

PS- GaTech took out VaTech today...;) GO JACKETS!!!